After spending the last four years growing increasingly unsatisfied with myself, I have realized that the only way for me to get back to being happy is to take a close look at my life and develop better habits in eating, exercising and dressing. I do not want to get back to the person I was before I got married, I want to get back to the way I felt about myself at that time.
This will be a long and difficult process, it is hard to change habits, specially when one is stressed. I know that I have tried many times before and failed, but, in the end, this is what I have to do to shake this dark cloud hovering over me.
